the thing this: i've been trying to turn off introspection. trying to be all beach-like & "life is light, life is carefree" because it is...but i can't stop thinking. i take a long walk every morning. tell myself that i will think of nothing weighty, nothing sad, nothing deeper than 6 inches. i made a summer songs playlist full of junky pop songs that evoke a spirit of peppyness. i even bought the latest marie clare. i could take ten walks a day if i wanted to, but the same thing would happen, leaving me frustrated: all of this introspection & no outlet. it's like i am dam-ed. (get it?)
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
getoverintrospective
the thing this: i've been trying to turn off introspection. trying to be all beach-like & "life is light, life is carefree" because it is...but i can't stop thinking. i take a long walk every morning. tell myself that i will think of nothing weighty, nothing sad, nothing deeper than 6 inches. i made a summer songs playlist full of junky pop songs that evoke a spirit of peppyness. i even bought the latest marie clare. i could take ten walks a day if i wanted to, but the same thing would happen, leaving me frustrated: all of this introspection & no outlet. it's like i am dam-ed. (get it?)
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maybe you are supposed to be thinking of weighty and deep things. instead of trying to avoid it, maybe you should take hold of it... you obviously have some things on your mind... the best way to get rid of it is to take care of it, eh?
dam-you!
you were sorely missed last night, but glad you're having fun with your b-friend in fl.
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